Saturday, December 5, 2009

Times Flying and I am Standing Still

I cannot believe how quickly this semester has gone by! It seems like only yesterday I arrived here and started one of the hardest semesters I will ever have. Despite everything that has happened this semester I wouldn't change a minute of it, because it would not have made me the person I am today. School has been a more challenging semester, I was taking Chem 105 and Bio 254 both demanding classes I hate to admit but Chem REALLY took over my life Bio for surely took a back seat. I studied chemistry at least 2 hours a day, and it became a joke between my friends and I that we were dating. Lots of people ask me "got any guys in your life?" or "are you dating anyone?" Each time I was asked I had two responses, 1. "No I go to school!" (i would say this with an almost insulted look on my face, as in UM I GO TO COLLEGE I don't come here to date...totally kidding, although I know I will never get married, I will tell you more about that later in the post) or I would say "Yah I am dating this really great guy his name is Chemistry, It's an abusive relationship but I can't seem to tare myself aware from him!" And that would be all laughs....well at first people were really excited then they realized it was a fake. I am glad to say that now I refer to Chemistry as my boyfriend, it makes me feel like life is more exciting than just school. ahah I have also met and HUGE amount of people in the library this semester, cause I spent so much time there, I have a legitmate seat in the library and most people know I sit there and keep it vacant every now and then we have the newbies coming and they just don't know that it is my seat so I let them sit there just that once. Many people tell me that I spend way too much time there! Which is kinda bad, cause they ALL assume I am some sort of genious who gets all A's and well hellen that is just not me, and so I have tried to cut my time spent at the library maybe they will think I am slacking and my B grades won't seem so bad to them. Hahah. That is pretty much all of school has to offer in stories.

This semester has also been harder because my FAMILY moved across the world to Australia, and it has been hard knowing that they are so far away. Before I could call home whenever I wanted (I am a total Mommy's girl and love talking with her) But not I have till wait till at least 4 pm to talk and I has just been hard communicating, and I miss them very much!! I am so excited to go home for Christmas and stay there in the SUNNY weather till April. This is one of the reason's I am so thankful for technology (skype, facebook, cell phones) the way we keep connected.

Last reason why this semester has been not as great, I have had some friend problems. My whole life drama has NEVER followed me around, and have NEVER had friend issues. Senior year the last 2 months of school drama hit me like a ton of bricks, that is a different story though...anyway this semester I came back to school for two reasons: 1. Because I had an overwhelming feeling like I needed to be here (still don't know why) and 2. Because I wanted to spend more time with one of my best friends before we separated for a little while. Well lots of things happened, and we didn't end up spending as much time together as I would've liked, and I totally take into account all the events that occured, because LIFE HAPPENS and it is through life that we learn these valuable lessons. What I have learned this semester include: - friends are more important than you realize. Friends are the people who will be there for you (especially at school) when your family isn't. Friends will help you through the tough times and rejoice with you through the good times. Friends are the one's that will cry with you when you are sad (or if you don't cry and just get choked like lots of us they come and lay with you even though they are in a towel just out of the shower and still wet). Just like any other relationship friendship takes work, and if you are on a bumpy road you have to give more effort than just a day, and effort has to come from BOTH parts, not just one side. Friends are going to grow with you, and see you grow and change. Friends are going to be there for you your whole life, no matter what fights or arguments, or anything else that happens along the way. Some friends you will consider family no matter what happens! Good friends are hard to find, harder to leave, and impossible to forget. There is a qoute I found and it goes like this "Everything is okay in the end. If it's not okay, it's not the end" If there is one piece of advice I could give out, it would be to NEVER give up, just look at that quote "if it's not okay, its not the end" Although the semester didn't go as I had hoped I wouldn't change one minute of it because I wouldn't have learnt all of this!

Now for why I am never going to get married: Well I spend lots of time in the library doing chemistry questions. I spend lots of time in the library when I should be going out on dates, actually I never get asked out maybe it's cause I spend too much time in the library. ANYWAY my chemistry teacher Sis. Hanks...love her to death! She is awesome, is not married. And after a really hard test that most of us didn't do too hot on, she decided to give us a little speech. She said that you know in life you have a plan, and maybe some of us are wanting to be dentists or doctors and you know maybe that's not the path we should be on. Her whole life she always thought she was going ot get married and have kids, but she was always doing chemistry questions when she should've been going out on dates and at first it was hard, but now that she has realized her purpose in life she is okay with it...DUN DUN DUNNNNNNN my life was foreshadowed by Sis. Hanks. THANK YOU! I now know where I will be in 15 years....I will be teaching at a HS coaching track and field, and also being a personal trainer...no husband, no kids, yes this is hard to think of at first since I am only 19...but I am okay with it thanks to Sis. Hanks!!!

Hopefully you have enjoyed reading this post. I shall post more often, and post pictures. Till next time...xoxo Gossip Girl haha.